shouldn't i be sleeping?

yes...i should....and i am not! oh well, looks like im gonna fall asleep in class again. i wonder what i am going to do tomorrow. this week has been...really easy lately, and its a little creepy. anyhow, i wanted to write a little bit about life in general.

when we reach a certain age, i think we go through...despair...what was it? it was on some psychological scale that after our 50s, we as humans go through a period of time when our mindsets are thinking about our past, regrets, and despair. death looms around the corner. isn't that depressing?

only to read this one essay in english today about a man who worked so hard that he didn't really interact with the relationships around him and pretty much died alone almost...well, he did have family...the author didn't fail to mention he died from a heart attack at the age of 53. i think. now that is depressing...because she mentions also that his "dearly beloved" son had to research his father through their neighbors to figure out what kind of person he was like. now that is taking life for granted almost. i hope i dont' speed through life like that. i almost feel like that is my final route to doom.

life...

tamago kake gohan

Yet another post on a wednesday. (oh my, i believe my frustrations stem during the middle of the week). I'm stemming away from anime in this post...as i am beginning to feel more and more disinterested in it. Well, i'm a little late compared to other bloggers, but i went through a marathon of watching "Jigoku Shoujo" which i enjoyed very much. I'm still a little emotionally hit from my grandfather's stay in the hospital, and i pray for his recovery. Hopefully he will be home with us soon.

Anyhow, this post will consist of...What's for dinner tonight? =D.

Tonight i will be making "Tamago Kake Gohan" which is literally Egg Rice mixed with Soy Sauce. Sounds tasty no? Yeah...actually its a raw egg mixed with soy sauce. i put other things in my bowl like dumplings and vietnamese pork. my only hope is that i do not get a stomache ache, and i pray i don't get salmonella. pray for me please. cuz i am deathly afraid of throwing up, but i really wanted to try it...^^;