shouldn't i be sleeping?

yes...i should....and i am not! oh well, looks like im gonna fall asleep in class again. i wonder what i am going to do tomorrow. this week has been...really easy lately, and its a little creepy. anyhow, i wanted to write a little bit about life in general.

when we reach a certain age, i think we go through...despair...what was it? it was on some psychological scale that after our 50s, we as humans go through a period of time when our mindsets are thinking about our past, regrets, and despair. death looms around the corner. isn't that depressing?

only to read this one essay in english today about a man who worked so hard that he didn't really interact with the relationships around him and pretty much died alone almost...well, he did have family...the author didn't fail to mention he died from a heart attack at the age of 53. i think. now that is depressing...because she mentions also that his "dearly beloved" son had to research his father through their neighbors to figure out what kind of person he was like. now that is taking life for granted almost. i hope i dont' speed through life like that. i almost feel like that is my final route to doom.

life...